hello Spring!

is this thing on?

hi friend 🫶🏾🌷 it feels so good to be back sharing space with you… thank you for rocking with me! I hope you’re as ready for this next season of life as I am—

*inserts quick bathroom selfie at work cause that’s about all the pics I got*

chileeee where do we even begin…

winter recap, let’s run it back:

as we know, winter = hibernation/stillness season. This winter, I leaned into the natural flow of life more than ever before. I didn’t try to force myself to jump into a “new year, new me” or try to keep up with being seen online. I felt the nudge to go within and let God continue to do a full work on me - so that’s exactly what I did. I read more, I rested more, I stressed less, and I was honestly more present where my feet are than I’ve probably been since childhood. And let me just tell you—it felt SO good.

as a fall baby, and having a holiday birthday (🎃), it feels like one thing after another from October through Jan 1 and my social battery had been depleted. sis was wore outttt, okay lol

going offline and uninstalling youtube…

If you know me you know, I am a YouTube stan— I watch YouTube more than I watch TV and have honestly been that way since the early days of YT. Also, in the crazy world of social media, a lot of the other platforms just be a litttttle 🤏🏾 too much for me and I feel safer on YouTube—

That said, I was having a hard time hearing God clearly and was struggling with feeling a little clouded and confused within my own journey because I was over-consuming other people speaking and sharing, almost on autopilot. In the car, in the shower, when I’m doing the dishes or cooking, just any time there was empty space in my life it was being filled without me even being intentionally aware about it

So, I temporarily deleted the app off my phone (it’s still gone) because I knew I needed to remove the option to mindlessly scroll and over-consume from my daily muscle memory in order to give my nervous system a rest—and give my full attention and devotion to the transformation that I was undergoing on both a personal and spiritual level

While this was happening, I was asking God to reveal my “thing” —

you know, the thing… that “thing” that makes you different, aka our uniqueness.

I was expecting this to come in the form of a new creative concept for my content or a deep sense of clarity about what the safe space with ky actually is. Is it a community? Is it a media platform? How can it be a community when as of now it seems to all revolve around me? How can I make it more inclusive of community when the community hasn’t really formed yet?? These are just some of the questions that were swirling in my head—

And as per usual, for an overthinking girl like me, God responded to me with a loving gentleness and simplicity when I was looking for something much different… something much more complicated to match all the questions in my mind

Then I heard, “stop looking for something new and just focus on finishing what you start”

And I oop—

It’s funny because I was looking at my page getting frustrated because I couldn’t come up with any cool new ideas and then it was almost like that inner voice said “I got an idea, how about you just finish what you start? You have something good here just focus on this” and I’m like oh okay, well check me then LOL

honestly this happens a lot as an over-thinker. start something, second guess, overthink, try to find ways to do something new and better, abandon the original project before it could even really take off, then do it all over again. I think it’s an underlying anxious/I’m not good enough energy that I am actively working to release for good. cause friend, the ghetto—absolutely not!

so, what will this community become? I honestly don’t know—I’m just staying present where my feet are and taking it one step at a time. Enjoying every piece of the journey and watching it all unfold. The life that our Creator intended for us is 1 million times better than any life we could ever dream up, so I’m really just leaning into that. Re-discovering who I am and who I’ve been called to be, and allowing myself to be surprised with how good it can really get. [we have a new rediscovery vlog going live soon, you can subscribe to my channel here!]

ok that was a lot, and I hope you’re still reading lol 🥹 now for the most exciting part,

the garden 👩🏾‍🌾✨🌱

ya girl is officially entering her gardener/future farmer era and I am freaaaaaaking out 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

first and foremost, BIG LOVE to the Black Female farmers who have documented their journeys and influenced me to a calling I never even knew could exist for me — namely Dreka Gates (I’ve been watching her farm journey since the beginning) and Kelis! Plus allllll of our ancestors, elders, medicine women and men, and wise folk who know the value of working the land. We were forced into it initially, and then we made it ours!

check out this incredible VICE episode highlighting our people — The Young Black Farmers Defying a Legacy of Discrimination

it has been 11 days since planting the seeds in the first starter tray and 8 days since planting in the second, proud to say that as of 2 days ago we have 5 pods starting to sprout 🌱🥹 scream with me friend!!!!!

so far, the collard greens and scallions are the first ones to take off, and we’ve got tomatoes, sweet peppers, basil, thyme, rosemary, spearmint, kale, jubilee tomatoes and a few other things germinating in the trays right now. Plus we have okra and cantaloupe seeds which we will plant straight into the ground closer to the last frost and I’m also planning on planting a plum tree! Talk about best life!!!

I am so over the moon about this journey and I’m so excited for every part of it, really returning to the Earth and honoring the process of patience, nurturing something from start to finish — big Taurus rising energy lol

I’ll be sharing short videos on my IG (@kyraharthur) and my TikTok (@kyrah.arthur) but we’ll be documenting the whole journey in depth on my YouTube channel, so come join us over there to really see it all unfold

💖 ok friends, I think that’s all I got for now

thank you so much for journeying with me through this thing called life, I love and appreciate y’all deeply and I pray that as for our corner of the internet, this can always be a safe space for you <3

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P.S. tomorrow marks 2 years that my mom gained her wings and I honestly didn’t know how to feel about it, but this morning when I was in the shower I was just overwhelmed with gratitude and the tears were rolling down my face.

Grateful to know her and love her and get to call her mom, grateful that through all of the challenges, God chose me to be her daughter. Grateful that on the other side of this we will meet again—I know that when I get to heavens gates the first place I'll be going is running right to my mama!!!

Thank you mom, for everything. I promise I will run my race and live my life to the fullest capacity of joy that God has for me, for you… because you deserve it. to the moon and back mama, I’ll be loving you always 💖

alexa play *Looking For You* by Kirk Franklin 💖

this newsletter is brought to you in loving memory of my mommy <3

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Recap:

1. Hibernation season is a real thing, I hope y’all enjoyed yours

2. Friend, maybe you don’t need to do a new thing - maybe you just need to finish what you started

3. Entering my gardener era and I’m geeked!

4. 2 whole victory laps in heaven mom ❤️‍🩹💫 I’ll see you on the other side